In need of guidance

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Kev

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Lamia Infans

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(04/17/09 02:35 AM)

This time I truly need help. I thought I had found a donor but in the end they are the same and I don't feel like anyone about this, because the two people I thought could help did nothing in the end...one of them said he had no time this easter, because he comes from another country only for a brief rest and said it would be okay in a month when he would return, but to me it seems like he is just postponing it or trying to delude me. So I'm not counting on him anymore.
I don't know where my problem lies, the only solid fact I have is that I feel horrible and I always had, doctors failed (all of my check-ups are at least perfect and my blood crystal clear), psychologists too...I was actually dumb enough to tell a psychologist about vampyrism (I went to one 2yrs ago), the weird thing was that she couldn't prove me insane, the poor thing was lost and she couldn't understand me at all...so it was a complete waste of time and money, she just gave me some pills which made me feel brain-dead (I had university entrance exams at that time, good timing witch!) and when I told her she said there was no way it was the pills as this would only result from an overdose and I was taking only half the dose I was "supposed to"...anyway blah-blah, sorry... The thing is that I was feeling bad from childhood and it becomes worse with every single year, so for now vampyrism is my bet.
Blood has been denied, but I don't feel like quiting...I actually want to quit, I want this to end, but "thankfully" thirst (I assume it's thirst,can't question now) has made me ill-tempered and stuburn and I 'm not going down without a fight! I will go for an attempt at psi-feeding once more. Yes, I know you have told that I should drink blood, but I think I have explained myself.
I humbly ask you to please be with me in this attempt, maybe you don't it's possible for me to make it, but I don't feel like perishing yet, nor abandoning vampyrism...I will read carefully the article on psi-feeding on the web-site and attempt it. I probably have no choice.

My questions for this post are:
1) When trying to sense someones energy what kind of feeling should I look for? (I feel many strange things near people, but I can't figure out which one is their energy.)
2) Relaxing alone has become difficult, can someone PLEASE share some advise?
3) What presicely did Lady Razor mean when she said "hightened awareness of surrounding", when explaining how to focus?

I know that in the end, I will be adjusting everything to myself, but I have to begin from somewhere... So please try to answer the questions as best as you can, please forgive my tone ... and thank you for your time.

Even in a world of steel and concrete, there are those who thirst for blood.

Last Edited By: Kev 04/17/09 05:01 PM. Edited 1 time.

Montag the Wise

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(04/18/09 03:50 AM)

Maior Natu
Coma Luna

1) There is no particular feeling to look for. Since different people have different energy, your feeling will vary accordingly. What you need is to learn what the feeling actually means for YOU. See, we have different kind of perception so you can't ask someone what kind of feeling to look for, quite simply because they could get a completely different feeling, yet they would sense the same thing as you. What you need is experience. So, just visit some public places or just when close to some random people, just observe and analyze them. This will come to you with time and practice. Also, note that not everything you sense must necessarily be their actual energy. If there's too many people at the same place, its harder to focus on just one person w/o being disturbed by the others' energy. There can be various energy flows you can pick up at some places, which also doesn't help. If you have some good friends, just start with them because you know each other and you can go someplace where you won't be distracted. No matter what kind of feeling you get, just try to analyze it, like what it actually means. Then you can tell your friend some "surprising" thing, based on what you felt...you can then see from their reactions whether you were right or not, or you can just talk about it, because a good friend wouldn't certainly lie to you. This tells you whether you are interpreting the things you feel right, or not. If its right, good, if not, you at least have some feedback to base your further exercises on

2) Could you be more specific here? What exactly is difficult about relaxing alone for you? How do you usually relax and what has suddenly become so difficult?

3) In which context did Razor actually write this? Anyhow, if you become relaxed and just focus, you find out that even with your eyes closed, you can sense what's going on around you, sounds become much louder and complex. Normally, you focus on yourself, because you do various things and this keeps your mind busy. If you relax and calm down, your mind has more resources to focus on your surroundings.

And on the wings of a dream, so far beyond reality,
All alone in desperation, now the time has come,
Lost inside you'll never find, lost within my own mind,
Day after day this misery must go on

- Dragonforce, Through the Fire and Flames

Kev

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Lamia Infans

Posts: 58

(04/18/09 07:48 AM)

1) I see, so I suppose here there is nothing more to do other than be patient and gather that experience. But at least the feeling will usually be some sort of energy, no matter which the source, so at least whatever I 'm picking up will give me an idea of energy feels in general. Just one question, how can I find out feel of my own energy? Would trying to move it randomly around my body help?

2) This question originates from the fact that when I sit down an try to meditate, all of that breathing makes me light-headed and sleepy instead of bringing me to the desired state. I never had a certain way to relax, until a couple of years ago I didn't even have to try. Now I cannot seem to remove tensity no matter what, I feel that if I relax further I'll fall to the side from sitting upwards, may sound ridiculous I know. I 'll try taking a cold shower before attempting it, usually it helps, plus I was thinking that maybe I breath too much.

3) This is the part of the text copied&pasted: "Now clear your mind and focus on you breathing. Do this until you have a heightened awareness of your surroundings". I think I have at least been close to what you describe before, so I suppose with practice I should be able to get there in some time.

The way I figure it, the answer to all three of them seems to be practice and patience. Thank you.

Even in a world of steel and concrete, there are those who thirst for blood.

Kev

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Lamia Infans

Posts: 60

(04/20/09 12:45 AM)

I have started working on this and somethings may have changed since the last post.

1) I haven't attempted energy work for now, I give myself a week to learn and focus. After that week I'll start regardless of my level. But I have started trying to notice the differences of when people are near me and when not. I think I'm getting some kind of pull...along with a "something" on my skin's surface. But it's still too vague, so it could just be me. As I keep trying to sense energy, will the sygnal I receive become clearer?

2)I changed my pose to something more comfortable so now I can relax my muscles without worrying about falling over, an obvious solution though (yes I know, DUH). My head still leans forward without me noticing though, I 'll have to take care off that. It takes kinda longer for me to get light-headed and sleepy. I need to ask something, I have read that while meditating I should breathe with my diaphragm rather than the ribcage and slightly press the tip of my tounge on the back of my top teeth...I have gotten a few explanations as to why I should do that. But is all of that stuff TRULY necessary, because it diverts too much attention?

3)In the past days I attempted to focus sometimes. I can tell that my skin becomes more sensitive, as it starts to randomly sting a bit and it kinda starts itching (which is annoying though), sounds might be getting a tad louder but I 'm not certain because along with the reast the noise in my head goes louder too and I think when I eventually open my eyes things seem a tad brighter. But I am far, FAR from sensing my surroundings. I want to ask something...whenever I try to relax and especially when I attempt meditating I get the feeling of a preasure in centre of my forehead and somewhere in my chest, plus one of the main ways Hunger/Thirst expresses itself to me is the feeling of an inward colapse somewhere in my solar plexus, like there is a black hole there or something alike...Is there anything you know about those preasures? I 've the one in my chest for more than six years the one on my forehead came alot later though.

Forgive my rant I'm just trying to be as clear and as accurate as possible, any feedback is most welcome, thank you.

Even in a world of steel and concrete, there are those who thirst for blood.

Last Edited By: Kev 04/20/09 11:32 PM. Edited 2 times.

Montag the Wise

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(04/23/09 10:56 AM)

Maior Natu
Coma Luna

First off, most of things you are talking about are completely normal. These things take time and practice, from what you described I can generally tell you, that you have been doing a good headway so far.

As for your breathing technique, it doesn't really matter...too much. As you are the one who needs to relax, you should find a technique that suits you the best for this purpose. Its stupid to use something you are not comfortable with, just because someone else uses or recommends it. We are all different, and yeah...there has been a lot of good stuff written but don't take anything too literally. For example, you are saying that you had read stuff that recommended to breathe with your diaphragm. Now, you deliberately try to breathe that way and this is now diverting your attention...because its something new for you and instead of just breathing and relaxing, you are wasting your focus on checking whether you breathe the "right" way or not. I'll tell you a little secret, if you start to breathe slowly and take in deep breaths, you will automatically use your diaphragm w/o even thinking about it. Here is what I do: I inhale through my nose for three seconds, then hold my breath for two seconds and ultimately exhale with my mouth for another 3 seconds. Of course, I don't need to count it now as I've got so used to it so that I just do it automatically. Just develop some breathing technique like this, something you are comfortable with, something evolving around deep, slow breaths...

Its completely normal to lose focus. This stuff really needs some getting used to. Naturally, once you become more relaxed, you may start feel certain itching, tense, stinging or even pressure or pain. Your body is just not used to being 100% relaxed (or anything close to it)...even if you are in a deep sleep, you aren't even half as relaxed as you can (and with some practice will) get.

And on the wings of a dream, so far beyond reality,
All alone in desperation, now the time has come,
Lost inside you'll never find, lost within my own mind,
Day after day this misery must go on

- Dragonforce, Through the Fire and Flames

Last Edited By: Montag the Wise 04/23/09 10:58 AM. Edited 1 times.

Kev

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Lamia Infans

Posts: 61

(04/24/09 12:43 AM)

Thank you for your time and patience, I think the rest lies with me for now. I shall again write if I believe I require advice related to this, so please don't close the topic.

Even in a world of steel and concrete, there are those who thirst for blood.

Kev

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Lamia Infans

Posts: 73

(06/18/09 12:16 AM)

Before I say anything else, I 'd like to apologise for my long absense, I 've always been a lousy forum member. Anyway, back on topic...

I somehow arranged a feeding, even though I messed it up a bit, I managed to get about a spoon of blood. Even though all I could think of that moment was that I wanted this freakish experiment to end and I didn't believe that it would help me one bit. A second or two after ingestion, I felt a soothing feeling in the back of my skull and my knees and it seemed like things cleared a bit. I had a bit of headache and my knees were not in their best. Although in the first minutes I felt like losing my balance a bit, while returning I noticed that it was the first time in many years that I truly enjoyed an evening walk. Sadly the effect lasted only about a day, I didn't feel stronger (nor was I) or anything like that but I was undeniably better, the improvement was rather slight but by no means neglegable, and pain was mostly gone.

Up until that moment, vampyrism was just a theory to me. I was confused and surprised when it actually worked, to whichever extent it did. It took me a some hours to even admit I felt better...it took me two decades of this life to figure out what am I. But now I think I know~

Another thing, as for energy feeding, I think I am getting a better effect when I visualise the energy I take with a yellow/gold colour. In fact the first time feeding on energy in the air around worked (3-4yrs ago) it was when I shaped into a yellow sphere and placed it within chest.

The question I have for this post is:
~Can the colour which I choose for the visualisation have such an impact on the effect it will have?

However, I'd like a more general feedback on this post, even though I am not certain what kind of reply that could be. At any rate...
Heartfelt Thanks~

Even in a world of steel and concrete, there are those who thirst for blood.

maringa713

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Lamia Infans

Posts: 131

(06/18/09 11:34 AM)

Discipulus Mortalis

Possibly, by visualizing the energy as yellow or gold, you are filtering the energy you take in. So the energy is of a type that you personally need.

Kev

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Lamia Infans

Posts: 89

(08/15/09 01:58 AM)

Thank you for your reply Maringa713^^
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I think for the first time in a while I feel like getting somewhere. I might just pull this one without requiring blood. Anyway, down to business.
From the time I wrote this topic, I kept trying to achieve a focused state but still to no avail. I tried but kept failing, I think in this period I quit and restarted many times, but for now it seems to be impossible. However in the past days, I quit and went straight to the feeding part. What I do, is try to absorb the energy which is my environment, as in theory energy is everywhere. As I inhale, I pack the energy into my aura (where I can feel it) and from there, as I exhale I force it to compress into my solar plexus chakra. I divided this into two steps for two reasons. The first was that in the earlier attempts, as I exhaled I could not help the feeling that it caused to give energy out, so I defined its function as a suppressing which seemingly solved the problem. The second reason is that I can feel the flow of energy better that way as well as keep track of it. Luckily my skin as well as the interior of my body is sensitive enough to feel energy when it flow quite distinctly even without focusing.

Now for the things that bring up questions within my mind. The main issue is that although, I can feel the energy flowing into my body, the feeling of relief or restoration is very feeble. Moreover as I store the energy into the solar plexus chakra I feel like I am burdening it (feeling a pressure or weight in that area). So why do I carry on with this? It is the fact that after a few minutes of ending such a session, I start to feel better. Better in the sense of having a higher will power and more pleasant mood, my body's physical state is still not so much affected yet. I have a theory/impression of my own concerning this, but I have to little experience to go just by this. As far as I am concerned what I take from the environment is by no means life-force, rather what was named in reapers 'raw energy' which my chakra still has to turn into life force, before it is of any use to me and since I have actually used my system in a very long time it needs time to process it as well finds a few difficulties doing so. The last time I had effectively fed upon environmental 'general' energy, was some years ago. I had first stored the energy in a sphere between my palms (palm chakras), which stayed there for a few minutes before I actually take in inside me and it brought relief the likes of which I have yet to feel. I assume that since it remind under the influence of my palm chakras for a while it had the time to transform into energy (life-force) of my own and thus I felt its effect instantly. However I couldn't pull that trick again since then, I must've gotten very lucky somehow.

At any rate, sorry for the long post, here are my questions:

1.Does absorbing energy randomly from the environment oppose too great a threat? Will a barrier be soon necessary?
2.How can I explain the delay of effect I mentioned above?
3.Is it possible that my body's capacity to hold energy has decreased, due to not feeding properly in a long time?

I had one more question but I honestly cannot recall it right now...At any rate apart from trying to learn how to feed properly in order to finally regain my feet, I'm also trying to figure how does all this function, so any additional comments and explanations would most welcome. Thank you~

Even in a world of steel and concrete, there are those who thirst for blood.

Montag the Wise

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(08/15/09 03:42 AM)

Maior Natu
Coma Luna

have a theory/impression of my own concerning this, but I have to little experience to go just by this. As far as I am concerned what I take from the environment is by no means life-force, rather what was named in reapers 'raw energy' which my chakra still has to turn into life force, before it is of any use to me and since I have actually used my system in a very long time it needs time to process it as well finds a few difficulties doing so.

This is actually a rather inaccurate theory. Let me explain. Why do you think Vampyres have to feed on blood/energy of others? Its simply because our bodies are not able to produce enough energy on their own. Sleep, food etc. is just not enough for us. We have human bodies but greater energy need. So we just take it from others. Pure and simple. Therefore it makes a huge difference if you feed on blood, raw pranic (life) energy directly from someone's chakra or if you take in what is referred to as ambient energy and which sounds like the case you describe. Now, of course, people throw off huge amounts of their own energy so you can feed on it without actually feeding from any person directly. You can find its traces at places that are populated. Now is that enough to keep you working? Yes. Is that enough to really sustain you? Kinda, but that really depends on your level and personal needs and its really not something to be recommended to beginners, because it simply isn't just raw pranic energy you take in, you actually take huge amounts of completely unnecessary energy (not like you can't use it, but you just can't use it for feeding), you may also take in some really low quality energy (hence the disgusting feeling). In order to do this right you have to carefully filter all energy that could actually do more harm than good. Now there are Vampyres called Elemental that just feed on ambient energy of elements, and have no problems about it, but these are very rare.

Now to your questions:

1. It may, as I mentioned above, for you may get energy that is not fit for you. You don't want a barrier like a shield, you want a filter which is basically a shield that blocks only the energy you don't want while still allowing you to enjoy all the other energy (see the article titled Shields and Filters on the main site for details)...
2. Again, as mentioned above...as this is actually not a pure pranic energy it could just take some time until it sorted out?
3. Not really. But it is possible for you to feel like your maximum energy level decreased due to lack of feeding.

And on the wings of a dream, so far beyond reality,
All alone in desperation, now the time has come,
Lost inside you'll never find, lost within my own mind,
Day after day this misery must go on

- Dragonforce, Through the Fire and Flames

RazorTheTormented

Re: In need of guidance

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(08/17/09 10:46 AM)

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The first thing I would suggest to you is to try some grounding exercises, image yourself as a tree with roots that stretch deep into the core of the earth and with branches that stretch way up into outer space. Imagine energy flowing up to you from the earth through your roots and down your branches into you. You can imagine the energy as any color that feels right to you, golden or white light is common, but do what feels right to you. If you are curious you might want to look up colors and their definitions. This is by no means a catch all, in that colors have different meanings for everyone. Think of them more as guidelines and choose what you feel drawn to.

Another way to ground if you are having trouble with the above method is to simply sit under a tree. Sit with your back against the trunk and your rear on the roots or the ground above the roots. You should be able to feel a noticeable difference in your energy. Trees are the planet's filters, so even upon walking into their field of energy you should be able to feel the 'debris' in your energy field getting sucked away. When you are finished it is good manners to thank the tree for its help, most often this gets overlooked since after all its just a tree right? No so, its alive like everything else here and like everything, appreciates being acknowledged for helping. Some people like to ask the tree permission to work with it, though this seems a bit redundant to me since being an energy filter is what they do, however, it can't hurt, plus its good manners. As time goes on you will become more used to feeling and sensing energy and you come to understand how everything uses energy to communicate, a subtle shift in energy can communicate a "yes" (usually a positive, uplifting feeling in the chest) and a "no" (usually a sinking, or heaviness in the stomach), though somethings will prefer to communicate telepathically.

It is quite possible to feed this way, upon the Cosmic energy of the universe, but again its about what is the best fit for you. You may find that you have a preference for a different type (or flavor if you will) of energy or that a particular type is more beneficial for you.

Energy maintenance for us is very important. After a while, this will all become habit, but until then may require some practice. If you don't live where there are a lot of trees you may want to create your own filter. Just imagine an orb around yourself in any color that feels right, and imagine it keeping out everything that doesn't serve you, while allowing in that which nourishes you.

For meditating there are many different forms and styles, there are active meditations that can be performed while walking, standing, etc if you are concerned about falling asleep during meditation. Try googling some and find one(s) that fit you.

What did I mean by a heightened sense of awareness? Well, many people find that once they achieve a relaxed state they begin to notice things (feelings, impressions, thoughts, visions even) that they were not receptive to in their 'normal' state. Once you are able to silence the chatter of your mind you will be surprised by what the universe will reveal to you.

A lot of this is trial and error, so be patient with yourself. You will find your way to what works for you, just give it some time.

"Aut viam inveniam aut faciam." (I'll either find a way or make one.)

"You are my shadow, you bring me pain. You are the pleasure pulsing through my veins. Blood to blood, life to life. My breath is you, the taste of night." -William Shakespeare

"To those I've offended, YEAH FUCK YOU TOO!" ~Eminem

Some things exist, whether you believe in them or not.

Kev

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Lamia Infans

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(08/22/09 11:15 AM)

To Montag,

Yes, 'ambient energy' was what I meant according to that definition not 'raw energy', plus yes 'filter' and not 'barrier', I just thought filters were in the barrier category. I will read the related articles and ask if I need anything. I'm really sorry, but didn't exactly understand which part of the theory was inaccurate, could you please explain a little more? I recalled what I wanted to ask in the previous post, the question is at the bottom.

Thank you again.
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To Lady Razor,

I've read about grounding in ki mastering exercises, but I have never really tried. I always went for the ones that said 'ki gathering' which was mainly gathering energy from your surrounding environment. May I ask why target the core of the earth? Is it because of the energy's quality there?

Trees are from where I first started my attempts at feeding years ago. Yes I must admit just being around them felt better, however I quit back then due to my own foolishness in fear of losing my sanity. Indeed I never failed to thank them, it just felt right to do so for some reason.

Welcome back my lady, thank you for your reply.
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I don't have many questions at the moment, just this one:
If I feed using my hands, will it be enough to store the energy into the palm chakras or will I have to pull into one of the major ones?

Even in a world of steel and concrete, there are those who thirst for blood.

Dreaming Sorrow

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(08/23/09 11:51 PM)

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ZOMG Razor!! /huggle

Some things exist, whether you believe in them or not.

RazorTheTormented

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(08/24/09 09:57 PM)

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a.k.a. Invader Zil

The energy that is present in the core of the Earth is capable of burning off energy of lower quality, so that when you draw the Earth energy into you from the core, it gives your energy system a tune up in addition to replenishing you.

Dreaming Sorrow, did you miss me? *chuckles*

"Aut viam inveniam aut faciam."
(I'll either find a way or make one.)

"You are my shadow, you bring me pain. You are the pleasure pulsing through my veins. Blood to blood, life to life. My breath is you, the taste of night." -William Shakespeare

"To those I've offended, YEAH FUCK YOU TOO!" ~Eminem

It's hard to be a good angel when your wings are always soaked in blood.

keith

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Mortalis

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(08/24/09 10:10 PM)

Razor, on behalf of those who frequented this board before, and continued to during, your leave of absence, welcome back.

Kev

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Lamia Infans

Posts: 91

(08/26/09 09:28 AM)

Thank you,

However there is something concerning the certain grounding technique that does not seem right. When you say I should draw energy from outer space, will that energy not primarily be from the stars as basically they are the ones that radiate? The sun is a star as well. What would be the difference? This is a question I wanted to ask for a while because unlike sunlight, moonlight is actually pleasant, although the source is in fact the fact the same.

Any feedback is welcome.

Even in a world of steel and concrete, there are those who thirst for blood.

DreadPrinsz

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(08/26/09 11:16 AM)

Mod of the Inner Sanctum
Crucifer

No, not from the stars, but from the kosmos.
There is alot of energy out there that's just floating around, and all You have to do is open Your mouth.

And even when, it would be different, the sun is actually quite nice as an source of energy, as long as its light just doesn't touch my skin, not even moonlight, I think I hate that even more. (can't talk for everyone else though).

But allright, here is an answer: Enjoy Your thirst.
It makes You powerfull, it makes You aware, quick, strong, and it keeps You alive.

We aren't predators tout court (thats french for always, just sounds fancy, doesn't it?)
We becóme predators when we are threatened, by lack of energy or elsewhat.

Trust me, I have had plenty of what I need for Years, but recently I found out that is not what I really want.

Trade?

I'm Karma's little pet.
Just give it a shot and try to fuck Me over.

Last Edited By: DreadPrinsz 08/26/09 11:18 AM. Edited 1 times.

Kev

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Lamia Infans

Posts: 92

(08/27/09 04:30 AM)

Thank you, I must admit that was an interesting reply.

I open my mouth a lot because I talk a lot, nothing good happens though.... xD ...sorry, my odd excuse for humour^^ and I don't talk that much.... Indeed there are many more sources, but most of it I assumed would come from the stars due to the intense radiation they would just flood the cosmos. At any rate I still haven't attempted to feed upon the cosmos so I will have to, before I can judge.

The sun is pleasant for 3-4 seconds and that is if I am in shade, been very cold and have my eyes closed...I'm surprised you don't like moonlight, though. My eyes and skin are quite resistant for vampyric standards, but then I am half-numb anyway.

I'm not certain how will this question sound, but how can enjoy something that tortured me years and all it has left me is a weak aching body and a fading sanity? It may sound like I'm being too dramatic but fact is I have forgotten how is it to feel anywhere close to "ok"...let alone anything more than that. Maybe what you mean is to enjoy my nature, there there is a pleasure but starved as I am I could never really enjoy it. I'm really sorry if I sound like I am simply deflecting your suggestion, but I'm just trying to understand what you mean.

'Need' and 'Want' may be very different from one another, so I think I could understand. However I'm not exactly certain as to what is it that you speak of.

A trade of what?...I assume we are both vampyres and besides what could I have to give you...I hardly have a piece of mind.

At any rate, I thank you for your reply. It gave something interesting and entertaining to read today. Looking forward to your reply.

Even in a world of steel and concrete, there are those who thirst for blood.

DreadPrinsz

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Lamia Fidelis

Posts: 516

(08/27/09 10:09 AM)

Mod of the Inner Sanctum
Crucifer

Mno, the stars radiate light and warmth mostly, but there are so many other kinds of energy...
When Your abilities grow, You perhaps will be able to take energy from a raindrop, from a church (or something else that has absorbed energy from hundreds of peoples prayers, fears and hope), from someones love for another, or from an idea, just like You might recieve it allready from music (Try Rammstein, or ICP of thats more Your kind of thing)

And that is the kind of energy that floods the universe.
Ofcourse I simplified it, it takes a little practice before a young vampire can manipulate that kind of energy.

But, this might be the problem. haver you ever played Vampire: The Masquerade?
At a surtain point Christoph (Your Character) learns how to draw blood from someone from a distance, but that ability actually seems quite useless because it costs you more blood to do the act than that You recieve.
But, later on, when You gain expierience points, You 'get the hang of it' and the cost gets lower than the draw.

Same here; as every Young vampire Your problem isn't that You don't feed enough, but simply that You can't hang on to the energy (Jeezes, how often do I even use the word 'Energy' here?
Aaah, I did it again!)that You recieve.
I swear; I can follow a trail of lost (lets use the word soulstuff for a while)... soulsftuff from a Young vampire anytime.
So, thats something You must try and avoid.

Try visualise that You have a shield around you, one that doesn't only keep the bad out (like small demons, and big ones), but also keep the goods in, like Your own ener.., eh, soulstuff.

You'll get the hang of it.

The thing I meant earlier is: I miss it, and I try to get it back, that thirst.
I miss being stronger, healing faster,
being on the edge. It makes life interesting.

I'm Karma's little pet.
Just give it a shot and try to fuck Me over.

RazorTheTormented

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(08/27/09 10:50 AM)

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To Keith:
Thank you for the warm welcome back.

To Key:
I was going to reply, but I think DreadPrinsz explained it quite well.

"Aut viam inveniam aut faciam."
(I'll either find a way or make one.)

"You are my shadow, you bring me pain. You are the pleasure pulsing through my veins. Blood to blood, life to life. My breath is you, the taste of night." -William Shakespeare

"To those I've offended, YEAH FUCK YOU TOO!" ~Eminem

It's hard to be a good angel when your wings are always soaked in blood.

DreadPrinsz

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(08/27/09 11:53 AM)

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Please, call Me Myr.
My screenname is bothering me since the week I made it, but I'm just too lazy to make a new profile.

And kev, check Your inbox.

I'm Karma's little pet.
Just give it a shot and try to fuck Me over.

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